DESTINY's CHILD!

How much do you believe in destiny? Would you give like a 100 percent of your life’s trail to destiny?

Would you let the destiny play its games and keep sitting with your hopes tied to it? Would you?

Won’t you do something to make it happen like you’ve always planned? Or like you wanted your life to turn out?

 

I would.

 

I’m a 21 year old, loser-struck, landed up in a sooper happy, educated and unemployed phase of life, where all I do is take care of my house, do homely chores, eat, get dressed and travel to some interview spots and then come home with rejection or unsuitable job offers! But despite all of this, I’m like really really happy! Why?

Cause I’m MAD! Seriously as well as literally, both!

 

One month ago, I was petrified of the way my life was shaping up. I rejected some big monetary job offers for some reason or the other, felt disgusted and miserable to an extent which was unmatchable. But then it’s like a circular affaire, hot and cold, happy and sad; and so I was back on my optimism and positive track pretty soon. Or to say, option nahi tha!  But then Dear destiny played its magical wand and made my life pretty happening!

 

Destiny! Destiny! Destiny!

 

MAD happened! Okay let’s rewind back a year when I registered for this, but things didn’t work out. And to my surprise, their timing synchronized well enough with my sooper-vella time and now I’m a proud crazy MAD-ster! Since then, I’ve forgotten being sad, I’ve lost the meaning of dejection; and murkiness is replaced by bright shiny smiles of my kids!

 

I’m definitely one of god’s favorite children that he’s placed me in a position I’m best suited for. And not pushing papers in a regular 9-5 job! (Though, this definitely does not mean that I don’t want a job! Corporate world: little correction okay! )

See basically, I didn’t really get anything concrete by messing around with destiny, and trying out anything and everything to be employed like my peers. So, what’s the point you know?  I’ve just realized that you’ll get what you’re meant for, with a little effort though. So it’s better to sit, relax, smile and wait for destiny to make its way!

 

Now, to answer the questions. 1. I believe in it 100%. 2. Yes, I’ll happily hand over my life’s trail to destiny and let it ‘make hay while the sun shines’, and then I’ll follow! 3. A little push, and I’ll let destiny do whatever it wants to. In the end, I’ll be happy, which I and destiny, both know!

So, Like Hrithik THE Roshans says in ZNMD; “yeh sab likha hua hai boss! SAB KUCH!” Hence, I’ll play along. Maybe watch it doodle over my life’s page and then color the outline made for me!

 

Dear Destiny, Do whatever you want to. You’ve got the key, the lock, the room (of my life, of course!) and everything! I’ll enter when you’re done and paint it accordingly! Till then; Love and Hug. Your Stupid MAD loser kid! :)

BECOMING AISH! BREAKING THE ICE! GOING MAD!

All our life we have something or the other that we keep waiting for. Like the first date, the first kiss, the first job, the day you get married, and for MAD people like us, we look forward to ICE BREAKERS! That’s the first day we meet our kids. August 20, was my day to explore the real MADness.  

All I knew from days ago was that, this Saturday wasn’t one of the regular Saturday’s. Full night before I was juggling with options of things I would do with the kids, the games I would play and thinking of every other way to get them fall in love with me.

Just before I was leaving, I thought, come on! It’s just 4 little girls. And I’m good with kids. So probably the things will fall right into the mould and it’ll be a cake walk! But you know; Life throws lemons at you whenever your cocktail is over sweet. And Tadaaa! I was late by half an hour! The worst possible loop hole I could be trapped in.

Nonetheless, I reached the place. The distance from the main door to the classroom was a 5 min brisk walk. But these 5 minutes were like ages in my head-mind-heart! Damn! How will it go? Will they love me? Will I be one of their awesome teachers? Will I have somebody looking upto me saying ‘ma’am I love you’? And while I was walking, there were these little eyes which were staring at me, looking from the corridors, running away from us, smiling faintly; All asking me to do some magic on them, and make everything in their life perfect. Aaaaaah! 5 minutes and tons of questions were popping up. 

And then I entered my class, saw the girls. The nervousness, the apprehensions came to a halt! At first, one of them was sad and wanted to go away, but things changed after an hour. I’ll get to that a little later. Others were shy and hesitant. But then somehow we started. We asked them to introduce themselves along with the things they love to do. To our surprise, all they wanted was to get clicked and dance. I’d taken tiaras for each one of them, because that’s one thing that clicks with all the girls, throughout the world. Every girl loves to be pampered and be treated like a princess. I wanted them to feel that way. And they did!

This was it! I found the key to their hearts. And in no time, they were dancing to Jalebi Bai’s, singing at the top of their voices to dhinka-chika and making me groove along with them! There was no stopping them! In next 10 minutes, I was surrounded by 30 little girls from 4, everybody wanting to have a share of the tiara, dance with me, and get clicked, and the bestest of all, Hug me. 

I became their Aishwarya Rai and Michael Jackson man! Like really! Never in my life have I loved Aishwarya Rai this much. Seriously. No offence! :P

The feeling of a kid hugging you with all the faith, trust, dreams and hope covered up in its arms cannot be sufficed in words. They look upto us with faith in their little-big eyes, hoping that we’ll make their dreams come true. And this is when the transformation from ‘THE’ kids to ‘MY’ kids happens.

There are very few things in life worth giving up all your other dreams for. This became one of mine. I can easily give up taking a job, moving to another city, travel or hang out with friends-family, at their stake. I really want them to grow, and be someone big, and then remember me, as one of their favorite crazy teachers. If not the best, then probably one of them.

The worst moment was to come back home, seeing some of their teary eyes, hearing “Ma’am, don’t leave us” and getting a Taaaiiiggghhhttt hug, a little more tightly than the word itself! Oh! And the girl, who wanted to go away, was so busy hugging and loving me that she forgot what her mind was filled with, an hour ago. And then I heard “Ma’am I love you “, in chorus! That was it! Pure bliss! :D

I have MY KIDS with me now. That’s a life PERFECTLY lived in an hour! Aaah! “meraa jaadoo cha gaya!” Yay! :D

Now, I wait for weekends desperately and MADly! Right now, my head is busy playing Natasha Bedingfield’s song- Again: “So I do it…. all over…. again, for you!” And honestly, I’ll do ALL OVER AGAIN! Any-F-time!!

I WAS MAD, AND NOW I’M M.A.D-DEST!

Most of us keep worrying about our troubles; some do it on a regular basis while others do it occasionally. It’s just the degree which varies. Until a week back I used to whine approximately 20 out of 24 hours. And it included the amount of nonsense my brain used to think about, while I was sleeping too. And then something happened! Something so big, that it took the ‘whining and the nagging me’ away from me. And suddenly life seemed beautiful and thankful.  And as the saying goes, count your blessings instead of your troubles, and your life will be much more meaningful and pure.

And that something is M.A.D. a.k.a. Make a difference!  And it’s hit me so hard, that too right in my face that I kept wondering and asked myself, for almost a day, “where the hell had I been? What the hell was I in fact doing!?” Okay, so MAD is an organization, run by the youth of the country, working for the underprivileged kids to provide them with the BEST quality education, so that one day they become as employable as all of us! Just the thought, makes a difference!

You know, I believe, living is just a part of being alive. The other is to make a difference.

It’s just been 2 days. Not even 2 proper days. The first was this recruitment cycle, which no matter what, I had to nail to get into it.  And now that I’m all pumped up and ecstatic about, it’s pretty easy to guess that I’m in it! The moment they called, I jumped, and literally banged my head with the wall, but the pain vanished in about 2 microseconds! See! This is when they say ‘aaj khush toh bahut hoge tum?! Haain! ‘

Second was the Curriculum training! Where they sucked us out, totally! Switching from volunteers to teachers to students was not easy, but required. Cause until unless you’re not in my shoes, you don’t know how it feels. As simple as that! Similarly, we had to swap into the three roles, and get to the gist of the character we had to play.

During my entire 4 year college stint, I’ve taught like a ton of people! My batch mates, my juniors, my super juniors, in fact little neighborhood kids too. But never thought this way about teaching, the way MAD taught us. Never thought that tiny help would make so much of a difference in their lives!

Although, I haven’t really started off with the ‘teaching part’, but yes being there and imbibing from the extremely talented bunch of people out there, hearing their feelings about it, has made me FEEL the difference I will make. I haven’t been as eager with any other venture in my life, as with MAD. I just can’t wait! THE TIME! Sigh!

Aah! So, I’m proudly with the other aspect of Life now. I think different, and I wish to be a part of the difference, and I will make a difference.

So, what do you think? Do you want to? Will You?

LETS RECONNECT!

And now after (wait; March, April, may, June, July and august) 6 months, I’m back to my Dreams and Visions document. Wonder why I believed that giving up on certain things would get me some other things in life. I was stupid enough to believe ‘ek cheez jaati hai toh doosri aati hai’! Darn me!

 

So, HELLO blog world!! I missed you badly! A lot happened in these 6 months and probably too much to be written upon. Losing out on some friend, winning some stupid contest (actually 2 AWESOME ones: P), getting done with engineering, transforming from jobbed to jobless in ONE SECOND, having sad eyes for weeks, Shopping uncontrollably, n numbers of interviews, moving on with rejections, being lost halfway in relationships and WHAT NOT!  Sigh! My life’s been a perfect Movie script. (Directors, kindly read: P).

 

Okay so to settle this wide gap between the blog world and me, I’ll spill the little stupid secret that kept me away from writing. Ooooh! ‘I thought I won’t write till I get a job’. OUCH!

In the awe of getting into the professional line/ the corporate world, I gave up my passion. Uff! And just to tell you, I’m still educated and unemployed!  :S Dammit!

 

Aaah! Anyway, like life has it. Something big is coming, hopefully. And for the sheer happiness of my inner soul, I’ll get back to my passion. As said, Something’s money can’t buy.  J

 

Adios!